My cousin Roy has been staying with us for a few days, and he’s going home tomorrow. Yesterday, I showed him around The Hague, and all the buildings he wanted to see (he’s studying architecture).
He cleared his memory card for his digital camera on our pc, so I took the liberty to use one of his pictures here, hehe. I didn’t really have any fresh pictures of my own to put up, so this came in handy, haha.
This little female bird is cute too, hehe.
Even if it will probably rain today and tomorrow, it’s still summer. This bird was sitting with her friends on our roof a few days ago, singing, and flying on and off.
I wonder, what it would be like, being a little bird…
First of all, thanks everyone for your reactions on my previous ponder-post. Plugs: Roseline, Amy, ZhiWen, Rache, Tiffany, Joysha, Kim.
More reasons for keeping a distance
Rosy said: “Well, if you really, reeeeally like one of the single girls you met, then you should go for it. [..]” — I’ve been thinking about this comment. And I think I now know why I do now try to keep a distance. I think I easily have a crush on someone.
I mean, well, I like cute girls (duh), and most girls… well, God made girls cute. So I easily/quickly find a girl cute, personality included. However, even if I long to know what love is, or how to give true love, I’ve still only experienced crushes I guess (wow, if a crush feels like it does… how much more amazing does true love feel, and how much more love am I able to give?).
The perfect one will notice me
Dinky wrote: “there are very few girls who will notice the “shy guys” [..]” — Someone told me something like this, this year: “If you experience true love, you would just know.” In other words, you would know immediately if it’s true love, and if it’s mutual or not.
I’m sure that God has someone for me. Even if I am a person who’s less talkative than most other people. I don’t and shouldn’t care if only “very few” girls would notice me. I only need one to notice me. Just one.
Imagine the wedding?
You know how opposites attract? I’m already imagining that the girl “of my dreams” is an outgoing person. And with all the couples around me getting married… I’m now sooo daydreaming of when my time comes, with my (“our”) wedding, the wedding vows and the first dance… probably a waltz. I’m so happy for my friends and also my cousin: all the weddings this year.
Umm, I’m drifting off again.
Thanks to those of you who admit they’re experiencing the same/something similar. And thanks those encouraging me. To Rache and Tiffany: Maybe you know I read “I kissed dating goodbye” from Joshua Harris (which was inspirational, but hardly focused on my issues). I’ll probably go get it when the time comes, I’m not sure if I need it right now. To Kim (“[..] Love, a beautiful thing. But it seems so hard to get there.“) — It’s hard to get there… but I’m sure it’s all more than worthwhile :-).
It was party in Rotterdam last Saturday.
I know my entries here can go from very deep and personal, to very superficial. My posts lately have been very superficial. Although this blog is mine, it doesn’t mean I am superficial when I post something. It’s more like I don’t feel like posting deep thoughts or personal happenings or ponderings. But I do ponder now and then.
Fear for a long-term relationship?
People often say that guys (which I am ^^) are afraid for long-term relationships. That guys try to back out of a relationship when it gets to serious. Retreat when the girl gets too close. Flee when the talks about having kids and marriage start.
Am I like that?
Well, no. I don’t think so. But… when I’m around a girl (of whom I know is single), or when I meet a girl and hang out with her, I keep my distance. I try not to get attached. I mean, I do want to be friends, like buddies and friends like my male friends.
Fear of being attached?
With my lack of experience in love, I already had a few times when I had a crush on someone, but I was uncertain if it was mutual. And a couple of those times I confessed my love, only to discover that girl was looking somewhere else.
Which is the reason why I try to keep my distance.
A healthy fear of being rejected.
But now I’m wondering… me keeping that distance from any girl, would that decrease any possible chances of true love. I mean, should I just stay passive like this, or should I interact more? Should I seek out or should I wait? Would waiting mean less chances for me, where seeking out would mean creating chances?
The weather has been really nice lately, don’t you think?
Well, do you?
Four friends (which make two couples) from my church are getting married this year. One couple Koen and Angeline are getting married in August. Unfortunately I can’t make it to their wedding, because we’re traveling to our family to attend my cousin Arlene’s wedding, which is in August as well.
That’s actually the first wedding of my close relatives in this generation. So it’s going to be pretty exciting.
The other couple in church, Wesley and Lisa, is getting married in September. And I got their invitation last Sunday. It was sealed with a red smiling sun seal, haha.
They also asked me to make a wedding site for them, which you can check out.
Last time when I mentioned getting the Evanescence album, I told that I bought another album as well. And I think I haven’t told you about it yet.
Well, it was Michelle Branch‘s Spirit Room album. I know it’s already old, and that she already released her new album Hotel Paper, but I’m still happy with it, and still listen to it.
I actually was a bit disappointed when I had the album.
Well, the main reason why I bought the album was the song Goodbye to You. I heard it a few times on the radio (I actually thought it was Lisa Loeb the first time I heard it). But what I heard was the acoustic version, and the album contains the normal studio version. But other than that, it still is one of my favorite tracks (track 10).
The other tracks I love are track 1: Everywhere. And my most favorite track is All You Wanted, which is track 3 on the album.
I’ve been continuing my quest through the Legend of Zelda – Oracle of Ages on Gameboy again. I bought that thing a long time ago, but it’s so easy to put things away and forget about it.
But I guess my gaming spirit isn’t as high as it was before though, because I’m using a walkthrough now. And, man, some things are really difficult and impossible to figure out on your own. It’s also tempting to buy the Oracle of Seasons version, for all the extra’s. But I’m not gonna fall for that marketing trick.
Stop ripping me off.
Edited on 22 July. Kim: I don’t think GreyMatter can figure out any puzzles :P. ZhiWen: Okay, I don’t continuesly use walkthroughs, but I tend to get sick of it when I run in circles, or when a puzzles doesn’t solve… after 10 times. Gurge: Haha. I read this on GameFAQs: “Shoot or drop Mystery Seeds [..] on one of the attacking chickens- it sometimes becomes GIANT CUCCO!!” I want to try this out some time, hehe.
I met up with Jenny on the train station at 13:45, then we went for a short break at my place. Jenny looks exactly like in her pictures, so she was easy to recognise :). After that we searched for some food, then eventually dropped by the supermarket to continue by tram (street car) to the Scheveningen beach.
And today being the hottest day of the week, it was really crowded on the beach. We talked, took a couple of pictures. Poor Jenny was dying of the heat, and on top of that, on the way back, one of her slippers broke. So she quickly bought new slippers, which are now deemed the Weblog Meeting Slippers.
Back at my place, we… well, we sat behind the computer for a bit, being webloggers as we are :P. We went out to get some food after Zhi-Wen arrived, then had dinner. Zhi-Wen looks like in her pictures too (even as small as they are). Then Yoes came after all. I only knew Yoes from his comments in Jenny’s and Zhi-Wen’s weblogs, so I had no idea how he would be like.
Anyway, it was fun, and next time will be fun too (sushi?). Read more on Zhi-Wen’s and Jenny’s website. More pictures are in the Gallery.
More Asian people in the Netherlands with weblogs: Roseline, Vicky, Lisa, Lokhin, Lokman, Ashley. Half Asian-Half Dutch: Xandra, Hauke. Non-weblog: Maxime, Debby, Ling+Fang, Priscilla. Hiatus: Michelle. Asian Belgians: Sammy, Michael.